Thursday, December 30, 2004

quick update

I'm at school now, after eight days in Thailand and a night in Seoul. Today is the last day of classes (I'm not teaching though, I finished up before my trip) and in about half an hour I'm going on a trip to Pohang with the teachers. I guess this is something they do every semester. Pohang is near Gyeongju, where all the ancient Shilla sights are, which I already saw during the fall ETA conference. But I think it will be interesting. Part of me just wants to rest, but I think the teachers appreciate that I am coming. Part of me also wants to go to Seoul for New Year's Eve, but since I'm going on this trip with the teachers, that won't be possible. So instead I'll be observing the solar New Year with my host family, which means viewing the sun rising on January 1st. I think that will be cool, and I think I owe my host family my presence at at least one winter holiday.

I was in Thailand from December 19th to December 27th. I met up with my friend Amanda from high school and her boyfriend, Abe. I met up with them in Ayutthaya, I got on a train to there directly from the airport in Bangkok, about an hour ride. We saw some sights there, and then headed south to Ko Phangan, about a 21 hour trip. We were on that island for about four days, and took a sleeper train back up to Bangkok on Christmas Day. We were in Bangkok when the earthquake struck. We didn't even know it had happened until I checked my e-mail that evening and had an e-mail requesting that I let Fulbright know I was okay. Ko Phangan is actually on the opposite side of the peninsula from where the earthquake struck, so even if we'd still been there, we probably wouldn't have been affected. Still, it feels somewhat like a close call, especially since I didn't want to go to Ko Phangan from the beginning, and if we'd gone to a different island it might have been a different story. We're definitely lucky.

The trip was great, of course. We swam a lot. I think the most memorable part was probably snorkeling at Ko Ma, which was amazing. I spent a day by myself in Bangkok at the end of the trip, since Abe and Amanda flew out in the very early morning on the 27th, and my flight left that evening. So I saw the Emerald Buddha and the Grand Palace and the Teak Mansion. Anyway, I wish I could go into more detail, since it really was a great trip, with lots of interesting things, but I only have a few minutes, and it feels sort of difficult to capture at the moment.

I made a donation to the Red Cross today for the tsunami victims. It feels insignificant but I guess it feels good to do something. I wish I'd known about the blood drive when I was in Bangkok, so I could have donated.

One moment I'd like to recall....After Amanda and Abe left for the airport I took a tuk-tuk to an area near Khao San Road, to look for a blues club I'd read about. I wandered for about an hour, asking a couple people for help finding it, to realize that I'd passed the street a couple times, thinking it wasn't the right street because the name was different, but it turned out the name changed to the correct one a block down. I went into the crowded bar and sat on a stool in the corner. The house band was as good as promised, and the female singer was so friendly, giving me a big smile as she passed to get a drink of water. I didn't really speak to anyone there, just observed the mixture of hips Thais, backpackers and ex-pats. My eyes were already stinging from the cigarette smoke in the place, but when she interrupted a sort of guest-appearance by an American guy to launch into "Piece of my Heart" by Janis Joplin, I had to sort of sniffle from happiness.

When I got into Seoul yesterday morning I went directly to the Vietnamese Embassy (which, by the way, is a run-down looking four room prefab building within a stone-wall enclosure) to get my Vietnamese visa for the four days I'll be spending in Saigon. Then I got a call from Billie and Matthias, who it turns out were in Seoul for the holidays. It was a wonderful surprise to get to see them, and to have lunch and dinner with them. I'll be meeting up with Matthias in Saigon, and hopefully I'll get a chance to see Billie in Busan before I head to Japan in Feb. It was sort of weird making the transition from Bangkok to Seoul, I kept momentarily forgetting where I was, like when I thought maybe the bus was too cold because the air conditioning was on too high, and then remembering it was cold because it's freezing in Seoul in December.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

gray man in a gray land

As Rachel so astutely put it later, we seem to have good luck whenever we visit temples, just the two of us, and always end up encountering interesting companions. When we hiked in Songnisan back during Orientation, and decided to just hike to a nearby hermitage instead of trying to do the peak late into the night, we were invited to dinner there by a student. When we hiked Soraebang during the Chuseok break we met a female student as we got off the bus, who was visiting the park alone. She helped us figure out where to go, and then accompanied us on our hike. When we hiked from Songgwangsa to Seonamsa yesterday, we ended up with a monk as our personal escort.

On Friday I met Rachel and Cynthia in Gwangju, and we visited the Street of Art--a street near downtown that consists of little shops and galleries. Cynthia had to leave fairly early, but Rachel and I stayed longer. We visited a couple exhibits, including one of black and white photography done by women. I really fell in love with some of the prints there--there was a series of photos shot through what appeared to be a rainy car window. All you saw in most of them was the road and powerlines. It reminded me of Portland--there's also something just viscerally comforting about being a passenger in a warm car in the rain. After we left the art street we decided to see a movie, "The Phantom of the Opera." I miss seeing movies in the theater, and even though the movie was a little silly at times, (Obviously, genius has turned to madness!), it was basically what I was expecting. And I've enjoyed the music of that play ever since I saw it in San Francisco when I was pretty young.

The movie didn't leave Rachel enough time to make it back to the bus terminal for the last bus to Jeongup, so she came back to Suncheon with me and spent the night, with the plan to do the hike between Songgwang Temple and Seonam Temple the next day (it's about 6.6 KM, and I didn't think it would take us more than a couple hours).

We caught the bus to Songgwangsa, a longish ride past lots of farmland and little villages. I'd never been to Songgwangsa, and I wish I'd brought my camera. It was a really beautiful clear day. On the busride I'd been looking at all the dead foliage on the side of the road and wondered if winter was maybe not the best time to be doing this hike, but when we got to the temple I changed my mind. There's definite beauty in a snow-less winter landscape that I haven't appreciated before. All the gray leafless trees made the surrounding mountains look like the soft, hoary back of a huge dog, with patches of evergreens. Later I noticed how you could look up at a ridge and see the perfect sillouette of a pine tree, the kind of slender, curved, top-heavy tree like those painted on Japanese scrolls, visible because the surrounding trees were leafless. The buildings at Songgwangsa had paint and woodwork that I hadn't seen before, carved yawning dragon's heads flanking the entrances. Being early December, there were few people and it felt very tranquil. After wandering the grounds for a little while, and being handed a child to hold while her father took our picture, we looked around for the trailhead. We saw a sign that said, "Mountain trail" and asked a passing monk, outfitted in the traditional gray monks clothes and a gray wool hat, if it was the trail to Seonamsa. He placed his palms together and bowed to us, then attempted to explain the best way to go, which turns to take an so on. He knew a few words in English, but seemed to lack confidence in our ability to understand his directions, so he indicated that he would "escort" us part of the way there.

He led us up the trail, and we passed through an area that struck me as sort of 'behind the scenes' of the temple--there was a building with a huge pile of lumber behind it, some of it bearing traces of the blue and green and white paint that decorated many of the buildings. We passed many monks on our way up, of varying ages, who greeted us in various ways. We also passed some terraced fields which I assumed belonged to Songgwangsa. Throughout the trip our guide, who we eventually learned was named Hong Jun, (though I liked to think of him as 3 Tigers, since he told us he was born in the year of the tiger, in the month of the tiger, on the day of the tiger--he was 31 years old, but like most Koreans looked like he could be several years younger), would pause to attempt to communicate something to us in a mixture of English and Korea, some bit of knowledge or a funny anecdote. With our few words of Korean and his few words of English, I think we got into a rhythm (I think often attained by people with no common language attempting to communicate) of understanding most of the what was being said. Occasionally though he would raise his hands to his head and give a short, good-natured cry of frustration (or more often, remove his hat and rub at his shaved head in concentration). We'd only been walking a short way when he paused and gave us each a photo of a Buddha, one of the Buddha's at Songgwangsa. It turned out he was an amateur photographer, and later he produced his camera to take some pictures of us. At first I thought he was only going to accompany us past a certain bridge, but three bridges later he was still walking with us--I didn't feel any social awkwardness in his presence, neither was I worried about when he would leave us on our own. Even though he drew attention to what a slow hiker I was on three separate occasions. Once he asked to see my shoes, and when he saw they were hiking boots, he was puzzled as to why I was still going so slow. He seemed to accept my "long legs are not good for this kind of hiking" (steep up-hill with large, uneven steps) explanation, and later told me not to worry about it. We stopped a couple times to rest and eat some small oranges Rachel had bought. Though the weather was cold, the combination of the exercise and the sunlight meant that Rachel and I were constantly adjusting the layers of clothing we were wearing. Once when we stopped and I became a little chilly, Hong Jun gave me his wool hat to wear. We started back up the trail, and I think to the Koreans hiking down it must have been a little strange to see two American girls hiking with a monk, one of them wearing his hat.

He reminded us a couple times that he wasn't going to go the whole way with us, but then he said he would buy us lunch. It seems like there have a been a couple situations when a Korean person has been incredibly helpful or generous, and I've thought that I should repay them by buying them lunch, or something similar, only to have them turn the tables. Finally, after maybe two full hours of hiking, (and still with over 2 km to go) we reached a restaurant on the trail. There we had bi bim bap and some makali (Hong Jun told us that monks don't drink, but that it was permissible in some cases--I guess this was one). He asked for our addresses so that he could mail us prints of the pictures he'd taken, or e-mail us the files. Then he told us we should hurry to finish the hike, since it was already after four and we didn't want to hike in the dark. We asked him how long it would take, and he smiled at said, "Your speed...maybe one hour, thirty minutes." We parted ways outside the restaurant. He told us the next time we came to Songgwangsa, to say his name and we could get in for free.

As we were making our way up the trail (which had turned uphill again, much to my disappointment) we asked an older man in full hiking gear if we were going the right way, and promptly gained another hiking companion. He indicated that we should follow him, and accompanied us all the way to Seonamsa. His English vocabulary seemed limited to "temple," and "hiking," but he still paused occasionally to tell us something about the trail we were on or the mountain nearby. He also took note of my comparatively slow process (my calves were experiencing minute spasms at this point). At one point at a creek crossing he motioned for us to sit down on a bench, while he picked up plastic wrappers and other bits of trash that had been left by hikers. We'd been seated maybe thirty seconds when a group of men across the creek motioned for us to come over and drink some makali. Neither of us really felt like drinking more, but they were insistent, and I didn't want to be rude. We insisted on sharing a cup, though, though they also insisted on a refill. They also gave us some chestnuts and oranges. I feel my host family probably thinks its a little odd that I often come home with random food from strangers. Later when I hiccuped on the trail, our new guide pointed out, a little disapprovingly, that it was because of the makali.

Finally the trail leveled out, and we found ourselves walking on the edge of a cedar forest, with some fields on the other side. It wasn't long until we reached Seonamsa--the sky was quickly darkening but we'd made it in time. The old man bid us farewell when he understood we were planning on visiting the temple. We paid a quick visit to the temple store, where Rachel picked up some incense as a gift for friends back home (she's going to the U.S. for Christmas), and then hurried down the hill to catch the bus. We got off at the bus terminal and Rachel caught the 7 pm bus to Gwangju, where she would then catch a bus to Jeongup and I went home. I ate dinner with my host family, and when they learned the hike we'd done my host mother suggested I take a nice warm bath, an idea that struck me as very good. I read in bed for awhile then went to sleep.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

looking forward to looking back

A couple days ago was the 5 month anniversary of my arrival in Korea (I left Portland on July 5th and, losing a day to the time change, arrived in Seoul on July 7th). In light of this, and in cognizance of my overall psychological and emotional mindset lately, I made a list of things that I will likely regret not doing seven months (or more) from now. It's pretty to the point.

1) Learning Korean
2) Taking advantage of my free time by writing
3) Learning about Korean culture (including, but especially not limited to simply traveling) i.e. the arts, etc.

So I decided that I'm going to make myself study Korean for one hour each day, and write one hour each day. And when next semester starts I'm going to formulate a plan in regards to #3.

And I've actually followed my plan. More or less. Enough so that I'm not ashamed to draw attention to it, I guess. I've studied Korean for roughly an hour each night for the past four nights, and though I haven't written as much fiction (I've been thwarted by a winter coldness that makes me want to crawl into bed and go to sleep early), I did force myself to write completely from scratch, as it were, for awhile, something which I don't often do. I'm a bit stymied by a lack of ideas lately, but I wrote anyway even though I had no idea what I was writing about, so that's a bit of an accomplishment. The studying Korean at least is an accomplishment...I'm pretty good at studying when it comes to just completing a certain task (i.e. reading to page 128), studying for an hour with no real structure is kind of like pulling teeth, even though I've realized it's the only way I'm really going to progress in my Korean.

Yesterday I had my weekly teaching at the SOS Children's village. This week was exciting because instead of eating in the small cafeteria like I usually do for dinner, I ate at a family's home. Earlier in the evening I'd actually been wondering if I'd ever get a chance to see an SOS home. For those who aren't familiar with SOS, one of its premises is that every child needs a mother and a family. "SOS mothers" are single women from the community who apply, and it's basically a life-long commitment I believe. They are the heads of household for a group of children, maybe around 5 or 6 depending, on demand. Children (orphans, or children whose parents can't care for them) who are already related who are kept together, but also often have 'siblings' who are unrelated. One of my young students, from the 5 o'clock class, told me that I would come to dinner at her house that day, and I was excited--because I was curious but also because I usually spend at least half of my lunch hour alone in the classroom, which has become increasingly cold (I seem to have a lower threshold for cold than my students, so I've been hesitant to ask for heating). During the 5 o'clock class the volunteer manager came in and expressed the case again, mostly in Korean, and I realized that I was eating at In Sun's because the cafeteria was closed for some reason. I felt a little worried after this, since it appeared that the invitation was more compulsory--I didn't want to present a burden on the mother. But when I arrived at the house that worry vanished pretty quickly.

A table was laid out with fruit, salad and sweet and sour chicken (ordered out for) when I arrived. There were even forks and knives at the place-settings, with colorful paper napkins (I've used a fork and knife to eat maybe four times since I came to Korea, always in pizza or "Western" restaurants). After greeting me, the mother said something to In Sun about her friends, and I heard the name of So Jong, another one of my students. In Sun talked on the phone for a few moments, then ran out, ostensibly to fetch So Jong. Within the next few minutes my six pupils from the 5 o'clock class (which is entirely elementary school students) started appearing, coming in the front door and back door. Apparently the mother had invited all of them to have dinner with me. It felt like some oddly ostentatious reunion, even though I'd seen them merely moments before. We all sat at a table together, the children of the house sat at a lower table in front of the television, and the mother (I never learned her name) fried some pork cutlets for us. I'd never had anything dubbed a 'cutlet' in the U.S., though I've had it often here. Here it's just breaded pork that's deep-fried. It's sort of considered Western food (along with the hamburger steak), though I think it's a dish imported from Japan. There were also bottles of Coke and orange juice for us. I felt pretty special. Most of the dinner conversation consisted of the students saying something to me in Korean (anyonghaseyo?) and cracking up when I repeated it back at them. They don't really know how much Korean I do know, so any use of it amuses and impresses them...though that doesn't keep them from mimicing my accent (which, like my high school students, they do whether I'm speaking English or Korean).

After dinner In Sun ushered me into her room, and there Che Rim, So Jong, In Sun and I played. First we played something called Hamburger or something like that which involved them trying to get me to fall on top of them on the bed, Che Rim often attaching herself to my neck. Then we played a game called "Ting Tang" which is a sort of rhythm speaking game--you keep the time with your hands, one person says another person's name or nickname, and they have to say their own name and then someone else's name, keeping in the rhythm...you get the idea. Then it was almost seven and I had to head back to the classroom to meet the more advanced students. The mother actually said good-bye by saying "Thank you," which perplexed me a little--I wish I had sufficient Korean to tell her how much nicer it was to eat at her house instead of the cafeteria, and how much I appreciated it. Instead, "gomap seumnida," and "annyonghi keyseyo," had to do. I had fun playing with the kids, too, actually. It's interesting and enjoyable to see them outside of the classroom, to interact with them in a different way, and percieve how they relate to me on a more informal level.

Reading: Finished "Glyph" by Percival Everett, and "A History of the African American People, Proposed by Strom Thurmond, as told to Percival Everett and James Kincaid." I enjoyed both of them; Percival Everett has a sort of twisted sense of humor that I enjoy, and seems fearless about his subject matter, which I appreciate even more. I think "History" was my favorite of the two, not just because it has the greatest cover art I've seen in a long time (really worth checking out even if it means looking up the book on Amazon.com). Those two books came to me in my birtday package from my mom, and I read them too quickly, so my reading options are starting to look scarce again.

Friday, December 03, 2004

picture show

I'm finishing up my second to last week of classes right now; next week I'll be giving the classes a short performance test, and then the week after that is finals week, and I have no classes. Because of a schedule change, I have no classes a week from today, so I had to give the performance test to a couple classes today.

The performance test is basically a brief quiz which covers some of the stuff the students ostensibly learned in my classes this semester. One question asks them to list five adjectives that describe a certain person, without using their dictionaries. I put a picture up on the television screen (there's a video input from the computer in the classroom), and they write about that person. I ended up using a photo of Zhenya (my adopted half-sister). I'd already burned a few photos onto a cd at the beginning of the semester, thinking of using them later, mostly pictures of my family from my graduation in May. The performance test only lasted about 15 minutes, so I wasn't sure what to do for the rest of the period. They reacted really strongly when I put the picture of Zhenya up, I think they were excited to see something from my life. So after the first class finished the test I showed them the rest of the pictures on the cd. They all thought Azelyn was beautiful, and Samuel was handsome, and Dad was either handsome, or just 'very good.' I also showed them a photo from Azelyn's prom, which they found really interesting.

For my last class, I decided to try to show them more pictures, since we ended up with even more down time. There was also a picture on the CD that I'd overlooked the first time of me, Gemma and Mike Hoppa, a picture the Quest took of us when we were Renn Fayre czars. This class insisted that I zoom in and pan around on most of the photos, and on this one they started yelling, "Princess Diaries!" when I zoomed in on Gemma's face. "The Princess Diaries 2" is a pretty popular movie right now, and I guess they decided she resembled the actress. It seems like a student habit to point out resemblances in most people they see, evinced by the number of students who bear somewhat obscure nicknames based on their appearance (like Teletubby--inventive but I have to admit when I thought about it, it made some sense).

After I ran out of pictures on the cd, I went to a couple websites, like the Reed website and other websites with pictures of my friends. I showed them another picture of Gemma and they yelled, "Model! Model!" Then I showed them a picture of my friend Hoku, and they also responded with, "Ooh, model! Model!" And then a couple girls started yelling "Blind meeting! I want a blind meeting with your friend!" It was interesting to see how strongly they responded to sort of more professional looking photos, for instance the candid one of Gemma that her brother, a really good photographer, took when they were on vacation, and the sort of 'publicity-shot' eque pictures of Hoku (big movie director that he is). They also freaked out and seemed somewhat disturbed by a pretty tame picture of Dan Denvir wearing a wig.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Korean humor

A few days ago my host mother tried a joke out on me as we were driving home from work.

When Korean school-children are asked what the colors on the traffic signal mean, they say that red means 'stop,' green means 'pass,' and yellow means--

Here my host mother stopped to see if I could anticipate the punchline, but with the slight language barrier I was a little slow on the uptake.

'accelerate.'